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Saturday, March 18 Twinkle Twinkle Little Star!wonder why stars twinkle. I was lying down and staring at a star, about half an hour ago. and this little star that i was looking at, when i stared hard at it, i saw all other stars start to disappear in the sky. and so i wondered, if there's any significance to it. and so i thought, probably, God was trying to tell me, "child, i'm not interested in the things around you. i'm only interested in you." and then i continue to look hard at the star, its as if this star is trying to hide or something.. and ha, i reflected upon myself that, perhaps all these while i've been putting up a kind of resistance and i'm not drawing any closer although i claimed i want to. ha.. But i trust God. there will be a way out to all these. i need a break through. Isaiah 40:10 Do not fear for i'm your God. Do not be dismayed for i'm with you. I will hold you with my righteous right hand. Heli Dont ask me why 10:27 PM Tuesday, March 7 I realised that i don't like to be tied down.. yet at the same time, i'm very resistant to changes. just don't like the way i revolve around things now or rather the things revolving around me now. the former one is worse i think. anyway, yup results out and satisfied. time to move on to the next stage of life, like i said, i don't like changes.. so it meant, i don't really look forward to it. =( sighs.people are opening up options to me and i've yet to really sit down and think about it. because the thing is, each time i just thought of it, really seems dreadful to me. don't know is it i'm indecisive or the people around me made me hesitant to make a choice. funny i used to be one has to make loads of decisions, but now it seem as if i'm greek at it. don't like, don't want. >.< ok don't get what i mean? hah, long time no such entry, time for you to guess guess GUESS. NIAM NIAM MUI. Heli Dont ask me why 8:30 PM Thursday, March 2 thanks to all well wishes and concerned pals, friends, colleagues..it's been a day, yesterday and ha yup. i must learn to be content and yes, i am. thanks to YOU for your company and ice cream. heh. =) tonight, i also wanna reallt thank Him for choosing me, and letting me know Him. I just felt all of a sudden, this overwhelming love for me from Him. For the Lord is good. =) Heli Dont ask me why 9:35 PM |
Personal archives 2002.11 .: Thoughts :. I know i have to let you go.. Everyone tells me this is so... See, my life has stopped since You passed away Sometimes i can't bear it Even for one more day.. Thoughts of you consume me Every second of everyday I just want it back you know The way things used to be... In my life you held the key And now i have just your memory And though this is not enough for me This is how it has to be... I need to laugh again without feeling guilty You aren't here... I feel so alone & full of tear It's so terribly hard when all that's Left is tears... Mum, i wish you are here Just plainly listening to me... I promise to keep you safe Where you have always been of course In my heart, that's the place... |